“Seeing comes before words…It is seeing which establishes our place in the surrounding world; we explain that world with words but words can never undo the fact that we are surrounded by it.”—John Berger from Ways of Seeing
“The new job gave me greater privacy. I slept under the truck and had time to write in my journal. I never reread an entry. They represented the past, and my journal was proof that I existed in the present. As an event unfolded around me, I was already anticipating how I’d write about it later. A new entry began where the last one ended, continuing to the immediate, to the current act of writing. Each mark on the page was a gesture toward the future, a codification of the now. Through this, I learned to trust language.”—Chris Offutt from The Same River Twice
“I don’t want people to matter to me too much. Sometimes it hurts too much to think about them. Ones you love who don’t love you, ones who are dead or hate you, ones who you think about but never get to be with. I like people but when I get too close, it fucks me up and I can’t get things done.”—Henry Rollins: Smile, you’re traveling (Black Coffee Blues Pt. 3)
So it’s 2:10 in the morning and I am Googling “fear of sleep” because that is my life right now. But my personal hell equals your comedic pleasure, because this list is hilarious, right? Either that or I really need to go to sleep but can’t because I got the dread fears.
Practice Good Sleep Hygiene.
Go to bed at the same time every night and wake up at the same time every morning.
Don’t eat or drink any caffeine in the four to five hours before bed.
“There are some things about myself I can’t explain to anyone. There are some things I don’t understand at all. I can’t tell what I think about things or what I’m after. I don’t know what my strengths are or what I’m supposed to do about them. But if I start thinking about these things in too much detail the whole thing gets scary. And if I get scared I can only think about myself. I become really self-centered, and without meaning to, I hurt people. So I’m not such a wonderful human being.”—
This one is so appropriate too! Although things aren’t scary any more but that’s only because I’m listening to Gladys Knight & the Pips. No one could be scared with her silky voice filling the air. So anyways that’s the cure for scary self-centered craziness. Any kind of groovy music really. OMG I need to listen to The Gap Band right now.